How we survive is what makes us who we are....

I went home this weekend for my dad's birthday/Easter. It was super nice being home.

Friday night, I didn't get home until late. So, I just hung around at home. Watched That 70's Show pretty much all night. Oh, good stuff. The new ones, without Toper Grace aren't that good. I miss Eric. He's always been my favorite character. Oh, wow, I'm kinda lame, huh?

Friday night.... I had the most bizzare dream ever. Me and Jen were at some big party at some mantion. This place was huge and had three pools. One of the pools ran into the ocean. And we were just chillen and then out of nowhere comes Mark Hoppus. We were talking to him like we knew his forever. And then all of a sudden this hurricane comes outta nowhere and we were right there by the ocean. And there was some chick there, too. I don't know who it was. She was like "Come on! Get in my car!" So, we get in her SUV. Me, Jen, Mark, and random lady. But instead of going away from the water, we sit there by the ocean. And all the waves come up over the car and crash on the other side. I'm pretty sure we made it out of the hurricane alive, though. I texted Jen to tell about it and she's like "That would be an awesome way to die." And really.... It kind of would be. Me, my best friend, my all time hero, and the ocean. lol Some of my favorite things in life.

Saturday, mom made a big dinner for dad's birthday. Seafood alfredo. Yummie. My sister, Ashley, and Randy came over too. Before dinner, I colored Easter eggs with the kids. I was surprised that they didn't do that, yet. I guess, Ashley was set on coloring eggs with me so she wanted to wait. It's kind of like tradition. I've colored Easter eggs with them every year since they could. Every time I see Ash she has something knew that she painted or colored for me. My dorm room is pretty much her art gallery these days. The latest stuff she gave me, I left at home, though. I don't have any more room here. She is the cutest.

Sunday, I went over to my grandparent's on my dad's side for dinner. My aunt Sue was here with one of my cousins. It was nice seeing them. We didn't stay long there, because mom wanted to leave to bring me back. I was back in the rain cloud far too early on Sunday. I keep telling myself that I only have like 3 more weeks to go. Then I get to go home and see everyone again. I never, ever thought I would miss Erie as much as I do. And I never, ever thought that I would miss some of the people there as much as I do. Like, I knew I would miss Jen, that's a given. That girl is pretty much the only thing that keeps me going sometimes. She's the one who kicks me and tells me to move on. But like, people that I only saw once in awhile, I miss them more now that I don't see them at all. And people that I work with. I'm counting down the days until A7X and Coheed with Jenelle. That's like the day after I get home. Oh, and as of right now.... Josh will be able to come home this summer!

What else?

Hmmm.... Easter is my favorite holiday. When I was little, I always thought it was my own holiday. The two days seemed to always fall around each other, so my family just celebrated my birthday and Easter together. So, my birthday was cake, presents, and an Easter egg hunt. It all just went together for me.

As I got older, I think it had a lot more to do with Spring. Spring is when the world starts over. When things become alive, again. And in a lot of ways, the same goes for me. As the snow melts and the weather gets warmer, it's like I become alive again. I crawl out of that dark spot that it is winter. With all the bright colors and sunshine. It's like I'm a completely different person. I start over.